I AM IRISH. I AM PLASTERED.

Take it back to the place where it began Leave it there, can't lend a hand Take her away, far away Can't stand, cards say we can't go to sleep angry So take her away, so that I may live For one more night, nurse these wounds Too vulnerable, too fucked up, too useless, pointless, fucked up, fucked up, SO take her away so that I may live Too fucked up, too fucked up, too fucked up, too fucked up, too fucked up, too fucked, So take her away so that I may live Too fucked up too fucked up too fucked up too fucked up too fucked up too fucked up to concentrate on anything besides how you taste too fucked up so take her and break her and break me too fucked up to concentrate, feel hate hate hate want to hurt hurt hurt everything that she's made of the atoms that made what she is and everything she does she says too fucked up to concentrate on anything besides how badly i want to know how she tastes too fucked up to hurt her hurt hurt hurt her want to wrap fingers around her delicate throat wake up and write home tell them that i wish that i hadn't gone so far want to wrap fingers around her delicate throat tear the necklace from those veins that have been calling my name, calling out don't talk to her, don't notice, don't want, don't want, don't want, because you need me and you know it and so do i can't compromise now that we've come this far can't hurt you as badly as i want to because i want to break your fucking neck in my arms when you slide beside me, come closer and i swear i'll tear you apart, i'll take the life that you were given and i will break your heart fuck you and fuck your name fuck how you act and fuck the door from which you came fuck your face and fuck those hips fuck you fuck you fuck you i want your life to pour onto my fingertips fuck you fuck you fuck you i want you to break me like you do, you're so good, girl, but you lack tact you lack everything that i once had but not anymore, no not tonight, girl, i'd give you everything but i'm empty, alright?! i want to make you hurt as bad as i have tonight. i want to make you feel anything but sorry for yourself. sorry for me. i want to make you hurt tonight. knuckles are white, ready to go your lips are positioned in that way that begs me to swing but, darling, beg you to wear my ring. kiss me one more time, no turning back tonight. kiss me one last time. last night. last night last night last night. kissed you under an awning thought i might have finally felt something other than this fucking assumed reality, this assumption, this wanting. i need to feel real outside of this drowning. this drowning attempt like nights spent living somewhere west of here, warm. somewhere where the sun would at least warn us when it was ready to lay down it's head under a honeydew cloud bed fuck you and fuck everything you told me, blasphemy, you speak in circles, we move in different circles. maybe that's the point. maybe that's the place where we're supposed to realize our limits, as if they'd ever existed in the first place. we're nothing short of two adolescents spent on alcohol and nicotine. maybe we'll find out in the lyrics, what this all could mean. whatever this all could mean. you are uninvited, unprovoked. want to be somebody else, right now because there is nothing left, and this is the way out. pinned down and up against the wall. back me into the wall. back me into the wall. out of control and my fists are ready to fly, blood on the door and i'm ready to roll. you yell, you scream out. i've crossed the line, not knowing where it was, wherever you said it was. whatever you said whatever you said whatever you said. this is the way we should have done things. you've got me trapped. you've got me sold you've got me sold you've got me sold. this is the way i've felt this is the way i've felt and you've got me sold so take her home and take me in. take me in and take me down pin me in and up against the wall. soon enough i won't feel at all.. but not soon enough for me. not soon enough for you. panic. panic. we're two characters in this chapter, this chapter won't happen any faster. my lifeless lips lead me to your face. your lips are soft in front of me. can't help but want whatever it is that i see. can't help but pretend that i will be anything or everything that you've wanted. can't be anything or everything that you've wanted, no, i simply can not be.